Captivating Chaptor Five

This chapter is titled A Special Hatred. It goes through how we are passionately loved by God and passionately hated by the enemy!

No matter what type of childhood we came through as women, no matter the size of the wounds, there is the same theme, an assault to our heart. We all still are asking the Question we've been asking from childhood, am I lovely, do you notice me?

What is really going on here?

Throughout history, there has been great suffering put on women, simply because they were born female. In China, girls are the less hoped for gender to have, many are left by the roadside to die. In years past, if they were let live, they would have their feet bound, which caused a crippling effect later in life.

In Jewish history, Jewish women were considered property with no legal rights, as in many cultures. They were not allowed to study the Law. It was common for a Jewish man to pray, "Thank you, God, for not making me a Gentile, a woman, or a slave".

An Indian proverb says that "Educating a woman is like watering your neighbor's garden," meaning educating a woman is a waste of time and foolish.

Sexual violence is rampant throughout the world, and includes little girls. More than 1 million girls are sold each year into the sex trade.

So, where do these horrific situations come from, what is this truly about?!! Men have certainly had an effect in this, but there is more to it.


A Special Hatred

"For we are not fighting against people made of flesh and blood, but against the evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against those mighty powers of darkness who rule this world, and against wicked spirits in the heavenly realms." Eph. 6:12

Lets think about the Garden of Eden again. Who did Satan go after? Eve, women. Was it because she was the weaker? Perhaps. But, there is more to it.

Satan was first named Lucifer, or Son of the Morning. He was bright and beautiful and in the days of his former glory, was appointed a guardian angel. (Read Ezek. 28:12-14 for a description of him).

He was perfect in beauty, breathtaking, gorgeous, and it became his ruin! Pride entered in. He wanted to be the star, wanted the attention for himself. "Your heart became proud on account of your beauty, and you corrupted your wisdom because of your splendor." Ezek. 28:17.

Satan fell because of his beauty, now his heart for revenge wants to destroy beauty. And, he hates Eve, women. She is captivating, beautiful, she bears God's image and he cannot! His jealousy burns against us!

Not only are we beauty, but we as women bring forth new life. Women nourish life by bringing life to the world soulfully, relationally, and spiritually. Satan has been a murderer from the beginning of time. His is a kingdom of death. Think of the Holocaust, ritual sacrifices, abortion, these are his ideas. So, as a life giver we bring even more of a threat!


On a Human Level

Men in general, no matter how great a hubby they are, tend to feel terror, fear, or apprehension when thinking of entering a women's world, a women's soul, truly trying to understand her. Sometimes when we talk to men we get the feeling that they are thinking, "You are too much, too hard, it's too much work, men are simpler, easier." This is just the lie Satan wants us to believe!

Part of the reason that men have a hard time entering into their woman's world is that men have a deep fear of failure. Therefore, they feel that if they enter in, they have the potential to fail us, and because of their deep love for us, this seems too scary, too risky, easier to keep their distance. Many relationships reach a barrier emotionally that has an unspoken agreement that they will go no further. This doesn't have to be this way, but it does make sense and makes me feel compassion for men. It's not that they don't care, a lot of the time it's because they care so deeply!

To every women at some point the devil has whispered, "You are alone", or "when they see who you really are, you will be alone", or "no one will ever truly come for you."

Take a moment and ask yourself if this is a message you have believed and lived in fear of? Not only do we sometimes fear that we may be left alone by our husbands, but also by our friends. It's time to reveal this pervasive threat, this crippling fear, this terrible lie!!


There is Hope

No matter what lies we have believed, no matter what evil, or hardships we've been through, there is a hope, a light that shines brighter than any other!!

I believe these are the Lords thoughts towards you, " I have created you in your mothers womb, I have seen your days and have been with you every moment of those days! I have loved you, and continue to love you with an everlasting love!! You are my creation, my lovely, my beauty, my bride! I love when you wake up and love surprising you with my beauty and watching your face light up! I love spending time with you, I will never tire of it, we will spend eternity together! Because of my great love for you, I sent my one and only son, Jesus, to die so you can be free! Free from the lies, free from the pain, free from the assaults on your soul! I bring life and if you give me your life I will fill you and bring you life and peace! Come to me my darling and let me love you like no other!!"

Captivating Chaptor Four

Well, this chapter called, Wounded, was definitely not a fun one to go through, but very helpful and eye opening, how the wounds from our past can shape who we believe ourselves to be, and how sometimes that is so very wrong!

From our childhood we can receive wounds from our mother's and father's. From our mothers we learned what it meant to be feminine. From our mothers we learn what is means to be a women, from our fathers the value that women has. If a woman is comfortable with her own femininity, her beauty, her strength, then the chances are good that her daughter will be too.

Mothers bring us mercy and tenderness. They are a bit of a mystery to young girls, they are someone they look up to and yet know they will someday belong to the same club.

Little girls often look to their daddies looking for acceptance, wondering if they think they are lovely. Remember the twirling skirts? Above all, a little girl learns the answer to her Question from her father.

Depending on what type of childhood you had, no matter how wonderful, or not so wonderful your parents were, there are always areas that we have been wounded and still carry around with us. No parent is perfect. You can not be alive long without being wounded, it just happens. Everyone at some point will experience a broken heart.

Some women have gone through extreme pain from their childhood, but no matter how small or big your wounds are, the effects are the same. The feelings of uncertainty and worthlessness that they breed are the same.

The Messages of our Wounds Can Shape Us

The wounds we receive from our childhood bring messages with them that stick to the core of who we are, right in the place of our Question. Our wounds strike at the core of our femininity. As children we don't have the understanding to work through our wounds, so they follow us to adulthood where then surface and are either dealt with, or ignored and left to grow.


As a result of the wounds we received growing up we come to believe there is something wrong with us personally, it must be us. Through believing this, shame enters the picture and can paralyze us.

Sadly, we often get so carried away in putting ourselves down and wallowing in our shame we don't come up for air and ask of our Father how He truly sees us!

Shame can cause us to hide. Shame makes us feel uncomfortable with our beauty.

What is even more devastating than the wound though is when we see our wound and don't have the strength or care to do anything about it. There is hope and healing at the feet of Jesus!! We need to see the wound, understand where it came from, but not stay there. Sometimes a wound is deep and needs time and cultivating, removing of the old and replacing with the new, the Truth of God's Word.

Thank You Jesus that You are a God who sees our pain, who cares about our tears, who understands it all and loves us unconditionally!!!